hello;
so many nights I wonder why;
hello;
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so many nights I wonder why;
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Peterpan, The Titans, Sheila On 7, Backstreet Boys, Vierra, Andra and The Backbone, SHINee, ZE:A and quite recently Co-Ed. OG10, 11SH20 and NJMD-MLDDS. Something is definitely wrong when life ain’t a roller coaster. Replay. Days
Months
Shout Out.
when the one you want, doesn't want you now.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 I give up, on trying to be anything. I give up today felt hard to even breathe. I looked at all the glass windows of the school, high places, especially the 4th floor. at times I wonder if things are just there for the sake of being there. or maybe things are just there to mask other things. I give up on trying to be a person, living and breathing. it seems, there's no difference without me anywhere. I really want to feel the spirit, be someone. but sometimes, I tried so hard.... no answer. when I walk I stare at the sky jealous of birds that can actually fly, of aeroplanes that soar up high, of angels that carry a thousand wings, of dreams that go way up. I watched others becoming something they desire they really want but I stared and wondered how come I wasn't there. maybe it's time that I do really wasn't good enough. sometimes, in fact everyday I cry for the same reason. why,I don't know why. I was taught that I should control my emotions but this is like a heavy burden. I want to blurt it out to the counsellor, to a listening ear. a thousand and one things, I said to a someone. and those things really break my heart. why, let me see something so closely together, crumble into many pieces, in front of my eyes. why let me see all the gaps. Yu Jie and Hwee Hoon gave me birthday letters and thank you (: especially yu jie's. longg! and very funny also haha (: I agree with you. sometimes when you feel alone, there are a special group of people that will always be there. Charlotte sent me a happy birthday sms the day before yesterday, around 11.50pm and asked me to read at 12 but in the end I read 10 minutes earlier (: hey, and thanks for whatever you told me yesterday online. then Fazillah, the next morning and wait, Alex, Sabrina, a whole lot of people. but best of all was my mum, she gave me A BRAND NEW ACCOUSTIC GUITAR! :D thank you! priyanka gave me a nice mug (which I didn't shatter in the end) and Hwee Hoon gave me the white bear [Mr Bean, konon (: ]. on the special day I don't know why I cried. not because few people remembered. ( quite a number, in fact.) maybe it's because when I was in, it was dead silence. I could hear a pin drop. on the special day I was sad for the first time. going through all this, is this a test? an ujian? I'll keep quiet now.
â–º Ready Or Not Wednesday, May 13, 2009 /
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