I think I have alot to say today...maybe.

yesterday's Masihkah Kau Mencintaiku gave me a few lessons, and also changed me. now I don't know why, I analyse stuff quite well, I can read people's expressions pretty well also. with a little help from Reader's Digest as well.

&, a new suspicion has formed, I told Ying Chao and Anita since I spent the longest time with them today. Anita says it's quite usual, while as for Ying Chao, I didn't want to tell her before jogging so I digressed the topic and told another thing that's been cropping up my mind. and thanks to the stomachache, I've forgotten what I was suppose to tell her. sorry :/

something made me reflect everything. half the time, I'd be staring at the window, looking outside at all the cars and the expressway. and when I went back home, I nearly cried, while leaning against the window. Mother Tongue also, because while I tried to study Chem, I was thinking of that 'something', so ended up staring at the pages.

which made me think, why did I screw up.
I lost many friends, one of them was super close.
I lost my face at times, to do silly things.
I lost my belongings so many times,
I've lost too many tears just thinking about it.

why, I could just sit at a corner, and cry, and make the world go blurry.

even in this skin I have, I sometimes feel too tight; and I sometimes I feel it's sagging.

I should learn, to treasure the friendships I have already. the bond between 2 very close friends is very strong, the love, the different things shared, the ups and downs, it takes more than courage to break it.

but still;

and now I'm regretting it.
the scars still there;