and that's how screwed my study table and room is.

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sometimes the things we do really take for granted. for example, time. spending time with someone for 4 years, though that person's not that close, but in 5 years time if we were to meet we'd surely hug each other. how weird, seeing that we're not even close but after a period of isolation the feeling of "I miss you" is as strong as gluing two elephants together with Super Glue. we simply do take these things for granted...
and so, even though it's only 2 freaking months since I lost sight of ANY friend (well except for a couple of friends) but when those people aren't there, don't see them everyday like I used to...it's just really weird. I guess it's cause friendships built in later parts of life, like in secondary school isn't as 'superficial' as those in primary school. it's more complicated with more feelings induced and there's a certain deeper degree of respect to that person and cherishing the relationship AND that friend. by the way, someone just messaged me but I'm really lazy to open up the sms, shall open it up later.

I'm not exactly sure if this is the right thing to do: being not even the slightest bothered by news that doesn't even concern myself, but delivered by a friend. worse,a close friend. take for example, friend A suddenly smses me in the middle of the night saying:

my pet dog is eating his dinner now, I bought a new can of dog food and he seems to like it ^_^

note, this is just a fictional sms and I don't think anyone in the world would do such a thing. but the point it, firstly why would I be interested in what A's dog is doing? do I have to know all the really, scrutinized teeny weeny details about something that is not even involving me at all? on one hand, I feel like smsing her "I don't care." but don't want to hurt her feelings right, especially if that pet really means to her? but then, what on earth do I reply?
now then comes the problem of "aiyah just don't reply lah!" but hello, if that person smses me in the middle of the night about that then surely there must be some feelings involved. he who has a stone heart will never succeed in life.

anyways, that huge chunk is just opinions and feelings on stuff that really happened and I've thought long and hard about it, even through my vacation in Indonesia (which was FABULOUS by the way.) I have 42 mosquito bites that haven't even healed, one ending up in a huge gash on my foot (which means I can't wear my favourite flats without a plaster D:) and all in ridiculous places like my eyelid, for goodness sake... but so many enriching experiences, oh yes. like walking through padi fields and seeing a huge python on the way, spending 6 plus hours in a car sleeping most of the time, and most importantly spending time with my awesome cousins :D cousins that write stories that are really superbly good, eat 24/7, stick with you all the time, scares with a gorilla head and sings Online by Saykoji but with wrong lyrics.

and ZE:A's My Only Wish MV came out! (: it's really nice and sweet. as quotes from someone on Youtube, they're mad popular in Japan. oh plus Love Letter MV. but I want them to release a Korean FULL album! DJ Masa's 2010 Kpop mixes are really fantastic, especially the first 2010 half mashup cause he used Taio Cruz's Break My Heart feat Ludacris as a 'base' (this will only be understood by listening to the mashup itself) and I really like the song. :D and I like MBLAQ's Running and Running.

and thank you to hoobae for helping me do a huge thing that's really important! hurry and come back from Cambodia okay?!

seriously, I should have gotten this back then.