hello;
so many nights I wonder why;
hello;
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so many nights I wonder why;
Your Name.
HELLO.
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Peterpan, The Titans, Sheila On 7, Backstreet Boys, Vierra, Andra and The Backbone, SHINee, ZE:A and quite recently Co-Ed. OG10, 11SH20 and NJMD-MLDDS. Something is definitely wrong when life ain’t a roller coaster. Replay. Days
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Shout Out.
can't help it.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009 I need to talk. or curhat, whatever. I just cried after oral. well actually when I reached home. it wasn't because of the oral, although I admit I stammered a bit. it was because, of what happened that was somehow related to the oral. why? I still regret to this day. now everyone's avoiding me; even though there is 6. why? I can't be forgiven, no matter what. no matter how many people convince me. you know, where I sit in class, I can just burst into tears. it reminds me of a chain reaction, when it happens on one person, he/she tells others, they will think I'm bad. okay I'm just going to continue and carry on. that's why Mother Tongue, you may think I'm enjoying myself, but the PERIH can never be seen. how much pain I suffer during these lessons. there was one time on the way I cried and unfortunately I had to morph the reason. oh well, it teached me to shut up because I can't say anything. and when these times come, sit on a hill and stare out into the open space. or take the path which I try so hard to avoid. I can just burst into tears, when I see the chairs. "when you fly this kite in England, you'll see that the spirit of our friendship flies high." I feel like tearing my hair out. and I feel like flying somewhere, upstairs. I really want to make it up to you but I just can't find, the courage. then I don't deserve it then. I have already done the mistake and living with the life burden of regret and stupidity. that means: 1. constant thinking of metal, 2. constant banging of heads, 3. self-infliction, 4. worrywarting 24/7, 5. affected grades, 6. less talking. this hurts and it's really deep; I just can't stop the tears flowing, I suck.
â–º Ready Or Not Wednesday, July 8, 2009 /
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