first, I'm happy, the tired kind of happy. oh yeah, relieved because I did quite well for EYEs(: and further more I think it was the best I've ever did for this year lah omgiddygoodness.

so yesterday while I was brushing my teeth for the night, pain shot up in my knee and I don't know what happened, just that if I squat I have to lean to one side, and I cant sit on my shins. being muddle headed I don't even know where the pain is coming from. so when my mother / brother would ask "eh where's the pain?!?" I'd reply "I don't know! here maybe..." it lasted until today, and I don't know when it will recover. and furthermore, it goes on and off. hm well; something to ponder about.

the second thing is that I had this scab, kudis kind of mark on my foot because of a mosquito bite 2 MONTHS ago. today I thought, eh quite hard. maybe can peel off. so with very itchy fingers I peeled off the scab. and guess what happened, blood squirted out onto my foot until one dripped off right to the end of my toes. like a volcano! & I started screaming TISSUE! TISSUE! okay I'm still dabbing the wound with the blood stained tissue.

kay ASHIKIN and AMIRAH are awesome-ly pro. the close passage was ****z.

I watched Macam-Macam Aznil on Suria. haha, it's very comical (:

with great milk comes great sleep.
oh that reminds me, I have to selipkanthe brown dewan sastera envelope in my bag.
and I see my black lovely guitar again. hm, lab partner's pretty awed at it. especially the fact that it's black. (:

I watched this Korean game show in which SHINee was there. but then there were only 3 members and the vid's posted on Hui Sian's blog. she thinks Taemin is cute. butbut, in the video Onew's better lah please.

and I changed my handphone theme AND wallpaper-it's this robotmeetsgirl photo from Vogue Girl Korea. and on the way back home Sanjana and I caught up with a, let's say an old classmate of ours lah huh. plus, I told her one of my really, obnoxious, stupid, wacky and crazy theories. back to the tradition of gossiping in primary school eh. (:

oh hey twit twit twit twit twitter.

awesome, I got Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol. and it IS really good (:

Il someone. (:

It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm.
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.

I'll make the most of all the sadness,
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room.

Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?

~Slow Dancing In A Burning Room by John Mayer~

well, ain't this perfect. Kevin Aprilio and Cakka Nuraga.
(:

backstreet boys;

Got a million reasons to run and hide
I don't blame you for being scared, for being scared, no
'Bout a novel long, all the pain that he's caused you
Baby I'm fully aware, I'm fully aware

I would change the stories ending to me and you
Don't know the meaning of pretending what to do

I could be the one
Give you all my love
Forget what he has done to you
I'm here now
Open up to me
Love will set you free
If ever you believe it
Please, believe in me

This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know, baby
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know, baby
This is us

I know everything isn't meant to last
Box up all those photographs
Your moving on, yeah
I could flip back over that hour glass
And refill the better half, the better half

And it's a miracle how broken hearts can mend
Wont you dry up all those tear drops and start again

I could be the one
Give you all my love
Forget what he has done to you
I'm here now
Open up to me
Love will set you free
If ever you believe it
Please, believe in me

This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know, baby
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know, baby
This is us

If I could show you there's no risk of being left alone
Would you let your past go
I'll take it slow
'Cause there's no need to rush when I know

I could be the one
Give you all my love
Forget what he has done to you
I'm here now
Open up to me
Love will set you free
If ever you believe it
Please, believe in me

This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know, baby
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is us
This is love
This is love
Let the world know, baby
This is us
__________________________________________

so, heyhey.

I just read an old classmate's blog post and the first thing that I said was:
what the heck.
I wonder how much courage does it take to directly attack someone. well, that reminds me of last time. and I wondered, how extremely, really, foolish and stupid I was at that time. when it might seem as though small, but when in the end it leads to something even more great and worse, it's like oh-damn-for-everything-in-the-world-why-did-I-do-that.

oh, why are we discriminated. and to think I disliked Hitler.

I feel like as though when I read someone's post that sounds like a really, detailed, analyzed poetic composition, it's like reading Shakespeare gone modern.

speaking of Shakespeare, wonder what would happen if he resurrected again. the handphone would be a "contraption", pens would be "little boxes of ink", and radios would be "magic sound boxes".

before we know it, the year is over, and we say bye to things, and hello to things. I wish this year could last a little bit longer, but this is fate. and even though I'll see my friends next year, yada yada, but still, that one month of not seeing them, we end up missing them. like the quote, "absence makes the heart grow fonder". well, like my term 3 table partner said on her blog. this year I feel as though I've made loads of "new" friends, and some really awesome ones too.

I sit here typing this post as I munch on some Kitkat. I prefer the International edition compared to the Thailand imported ones.

there's more stuff on the cabinet doors in my room compared to last time. now there's a story about Envy, a "don't forget to get Campus word cards" note, a post-it note on the reasons for Treaty of Versailles and the Backstreet Boys calender attached to a dismantled paper clip.

this year, my full EQ is tested to the max. but there are many life lessons to learn from. leaving bygones be bygones, forcing myself to live live normally with man blows such as the loss of a friendship and the loss of a friend; and I thought it was too much. trying to reduce my hours of sleep to a few hours for some apparent reason, binge-eating, cutting, rubber bands, a thousand headaches, dry eyes, the list goes on. but then, I realized that all of this is a test to see how we would fare.

eyeing for that iPhone;

I just realized that my lab partner is my home econs partner. we'll have fun together (: I'll throw flour at her. no lah kidding.

if Allison of ANTM cycle 12 likes nosebleeds, I like fire and tears. not people crying, just tears falling out. they shine in the light like little prisms.

okay well, enough of reflections. shall stop here.
oh btw, the Poladroid software is awesome.

um, this is Perih by Vierra. just got released (: it was a hp ringtone before I changed it to another song.

so basically it's about breakup (I THINK.) remember last time the only alienated word that starts with P and I keep mentioning in my blog post? yeap, that's the one.

Perih.

oh, and Catherine wheels;
how they explode right in the face.

so hm, after what I might say a hiatus, because of EOYs, I'm back. (: well, this time I felt I did quite well for all papers. but it will only be confirmed when the red ink numbers come out right?

&, Marlene, Vidhya and Romaine are awesome (: half the time we'll talk about stuff that is, well, simplified, abnormal and NOT ordinary. but still, (:

sometimes, I mix twitter and blogger up. so I'll write a crap load of stuff on twitter, and one liners on blogger. but well, sometimes it's as though there's alot of stuff to say on twitter, and well, not much in blogger, on the contrary.

and okay, now that exams are over for the time being, I'll work on the Kepompong t-shirt design that I was thinking. and save up money.

I got the THIS IS US CD by BACKSTREET BOYS! finally. all the tracks are basically much like dance pop songs, cause they want to make a hit like their album Millennium last time. but Masquerade, Straight Through My Heart, This Is Us and She's A Dream and PDA are really nice tracks and makes me want to hear somemore.

just now my parents went to Batam and I stayed and my grandparents' house for a while. then I "nicely" remembered that I could have asked my mother to buy the Vierra CD for me just as we reached our house. aw shucks. well, oh well.

if I was asked to sing "For Someone Special", there's a variety, for a variety.

my teeth hurts.

and I want another Kitkat. brilliant! can have it while watching Project Runway and ANTM.

okay, I'll put Masquerade by Backstreet Boys to be enjoyed.

Masquerade - Backstreet Boys

ta.

oh, that's stupid, only 30 seconds of the song/ and full song only when you click the link. nvm.

and oh, how dare thou call thouself elite.
when the contrary happens.

when we are betrayed, we will feel:

pain.
sour taste in our mouth.
heartbroken.
pain in the heart.
depressed.
headache.
stomachache.
loss of concentration.
refusal to eat.
angry.
loads of clenching teeth.
a tendency to fall in love alot.
"new".
fresh, redone.
regret.
the desire to be a superhero.

there's something that's fun, enriching. when you go through life.
it's the things that you can discover things, which really, can blow off your head, or blow off your mind.
for instance, I found out that Anita was in the same predicament when I was in p6, except that I was meaner than her. (:

and, as I was in my bedroom, I had this brilliant idea. which got forgotten, then I remembered it after watching this commercial of Kepompong (D' Rainbow). something got to do with Kepompong the real song by Sind3ntosca, t-shirts, worms, butterflies.

oh, and I wand to read The Year of the Flood by this author that I forgot her name. it's Margaret something, it was in the Sunday's Lifestyle paper. plus read ALL of Kathy Reichs books. and finish my Eldest, and get Brisingr. Oh and I also want the Lost Symbol by Dan Brown. and also find out the last book of the Inheritance Cycle.

long list huh (:

and, people can be crazy when they are in love. I have seen cases.
but I think it's dangerous if it's TOO crazy. the mind gets befuddled and concentration, bah. forget about it.

I am SLEEPY.
and I just read the full summary of Brisingr. hm, pretty interesting.
and my Lumines challenge mode is still running.

okay, have to pack my school bag.
and I'm going to do something to someone. nice stuff. (:
bbnttymok.

my finger.

it's bleeding again.