hello there. annyeong haseyo (:

probably you might be too busy to notice this but my hope is just for you to see this. it’s been more than two weeks, since we had a long conversation ever since Prelims arrived. in fact I think the longest conversation we had since then was 10 seconds. and I can faintly remember the last time we went back home together. Sigh everyday I read the 3 letters that you write to me and I wonder “hm, I wonder when she will reply..” but then again, you probably might be busy. Though on the outside I might look to be really happy but really, inside I’ve always been yearning, “it’s never fun without my Onew, you know.” btw, 5 is a nice number. seriously, my Physics is super horrible and it’d be nice if you could teach me, since you’re super pro and smart and, so many things that it’s not even enough to list all of them in this thingy. I wish O Levels was sooner so that I can spend time with you and there's really lots of things that I'd like to do. unnie has to take care of three little sisters, one of them is you (:

oh yes and I promised to show you the Kpop magazine, didn’t I? and you said you’d call me and say out this phrase that you’d dare to say. (: no lah, I’m not scolding you. Just wanted to let you know that most probably all the fun stuff that we have to do might be pushed all the way to after O levels, even though there’s chances before Prelims but time’s just extremely squeezed and circumstances are forcing me to do so. Priorities must be set… even though we have different priorities… I want to give Onew as much breathing space that I think she wants. Furthermore, I think Onew needs all the time to study and prepare for O levels, so must have 100 percent focus, so no distractions right? I can’t spoon feed nonsensical stuff like spazzing, constantly showing a picture or two, talking about the latest gossip about some Kpop group, or just simply anything else... because it might affect my Onew’s grades and I really don’t want such things to happen. If my Onew gets a really good L1R5, a 6, I’ll be a really proud unnie. (:

that comes to another main point. because of that thing, sometimes I think, “am I a good unnie?” because my way of life is basically I equalize play and work, like 50 percent. So that’s why even though it’s just 5 days before Prelims but I still watch ZE:A and SHINee videos, and spazz to other people. But it’s super wrong to do that to someone who’d rather study and focus, like you, ne? (: I feel guilty for forcing through these negative things in your life, I really am. ): and furthermore I’m suppose to show you a good example but I think the opposite happens. the amount of gratefulness that I have for you, for showing me so many things and just spending many climaxed points of my life with me, teaching me new stuff and simply, opening my eyes to a new world out there...is infinite. how many times I wanted to say thank you but it just got stuck in my throat. I can't really voice out what's exactly in my heart most of the time and it gets me into trouble at times.



to the extent that I even personalized the font to make it more "personal". I'd always say to one of my friends "sigh I miss my Onew ):" ... it's because we haven't spend much time together. and being my Onew/twin/dongsaeng I don't think we should do that right? even though, I have only known you more, in detail, around April, but all the things you have done to me... I treasure every single one of the happy memories we spent together. and when I go through them, it just puts a smile on my face.

Onew, thank you for being such a wonderful friend for me. and really, so much more. I wished we could spend more time together, and I just really really wish that you know, someday I can be as good as you. my up moment hasn't come yet, I am waiting for it to arrive. probably you'd be busy to read the whole thing, or just skip the entire chunk of paragraphs and just zoom in on the pictures..or maybe you won't even see this post. yup, now that Prelims are over you will concentrate and focus one hundred percent on the O levels so really I don't want to give you distractions. hm...maybe this is the last long so-called letter until we see each other again, someday, after O levels maybe, I don't know... but I want to tell you something.

I want to tell you, that you will always be treasured. someone in my heart (: unnie is extremely blessed to have a dongsaeng, a little sis like you. and I want to tell you, that

happy birthday to Kwanghee oppa of ZE:A! saengil chukha hamnida! (:

MINHO LOVES HER JONGHYUN :D
so, Minho will try to concentrate on her studies more and lessen the time on the computer. on hiatus until Prelims 2 ;) but she will still come by to just update herself on things.

but no matter what, FOREVER FIVE.

btw, something about 20star! 20star is an upcoming Kpop boy band who's making lots of hype because they are about to become the biggest boy band, beating SuJu who btw has 13 members. (I'm still counting them as 13.)
XENO, RICKY, DONGKYU, DAEYOUNG, LUIE, DOWON, JAEYOON, SEUNGTAE, HONGMIN(MIN), RYAN, SHINSONG, SHIHO, SANGMIN, HWAN, A-RUN, RUI, SEUNGHO, JINHAN ...that's all I know. and plans are made to have 20 members? come on I can just go :O so many members! it will be really hard to learn! I myself took more than 1 month trying to get the SuJu members and distinguishing them. ZE:A took me 2 months as far as I know and until now I still can't recognize some of the members at one glance. SNSD took me agaration 1 month. 20 members, it will deplete oxygen on stage and the stage has to be enlarged... each member will somemore have a shorter cut, and I think their pay's gonna be affected, as how Key explained to me last week. but let's see how they manage, cause they haven't debuted with any single yet.
and here's some of the members' pics :
http://www.hellokpop.com/2010/07/introducing-new-group-20star-bigger-than-super-junior/
Ricky reminds me of ZE:A's Dongjoon and A-Run looks cheena. NO OFFENCE. still, 20 members? well, life goes on.