in lieu of recent events, I have two major things to say. of course, they will be rephrased so as to not make any direct connections with anyone or anything.

so firstly, I've kinda observed something. Generation gap plays the main reason for many conflicts around the world. the older generation, or whatever term used to call them, they're able to face tough challenges, obstacles and hardship in their life. obviously it's because they have experience and have faced these kinds of things before. thus, it is a little rare to see them complaining about the pain, the hardship, the brutal treatment that they receive. however, noticeably, the younger generation or whatever term again, give them the same amount of hardship and challenges their sunbaes face and they can't take it. so they complain, throw tantrum, sue, retaliate, then pack their things and leave for a better life.

cruel as it seems, I think it's the truth in my perspective. and then the whole cycle starts again. it's impossible to say who's right and who's wrong at times because each personality trait has both advantages and disadvantages.

then soon, friends become enemies, and a strong relationship (or what may be a strong relationship in the eyes of others,) becomes destroyed. HELLO, where is the love? it is utter waste to build a building when in the end we ourselves, with our own hands destroy it.

secondly, instead of maintaining trust between each other, what comes out now is suspicions. take for example:
two girls, A and B are in the same school. A doesn't like B and starts to pick on her, insult her and becomes mean. B is a well-behaved and honest girl who on the other hand does not retaliate but rather remains the way she is, well-behaved. then, because of an event, A realizes her mistakes and sees that her attitude isn't that exemplary and starts to act nice to B, giving apologies and rendering her help in whatever way.

last time, people would feel that A has genuinely turned over a new leaf and is trying to learn from her mistakes, be a better person and improve herself, by being nice to B. that was what people thought in the past, I presume. (it's in my perspective, I repeat. I might be wrong though.) now, instead of believing that A has turned over a new leaf, now people think that A does not mean what she does and she simply does that to take advantage of B and ultimately hurt her more.

in this situation, it is again, the case of whether to believe or not to believe. it makes judgement even harder than tearing off a pineapple skin with our teeth. then confusion comes in and a stupid battle forms in our heads. like as though we don't have enough things to worry about.

I have no solutions because hey, those are just my opinions. I don't even want to think of a solution because there's too much in my mind. so there, that's what I have to say.

anyways, yesterday I went to Marina Barrage with some friends (#Onew and #Jonghyun were there, shall not divulge who else were there) and it wasfun (: I loved the water park, or whatever it is called. had a picnic and saw a sunburst + a faint rainbow amidst strong wind, colourful kites and green green grass. I'd like it if it happened again (:
plus, getting what I've wanted...soon. patience is the KEY ;)

and, I don't care what's happening anymore. the window that used to be open, the window where things can be hurled at (nice and bad things) is now closed. I'm disappointed, and I cry about it at times, but when I think about it - if I investigate I could be caught prying into other people's lives but if I don't, I'll continue to push myself more pain and hurt. so I've decided, I don't freaking CARE anymore. my only hope is that someday, that person wil wake up and see what's happening to me.