While looking at a blog which Vidhya "kindly" gave the url after much, well, persuasion, I read a blog post.

and I'm laughing out loud now cause of something. BIG TIME loud.

He is a pachydermatous person.
that means He is a callous person.
which means He is an insensitive person.

I need to fix Sarah Tan's blogskins. but that aside first, exams first. (:

I like how Kashmiira said "you know, one is the alot of hair guy and one is got no hair one?" I started laughing aloud hearing that one.
laugh laugh. (:

quoted.

so now I'm doing synonyms exercises, which is pretty useful for Paper 2 of English tmrw. and I've found some nice quotes and phrases too.
plus, SHOCKING INFORMATION! EXTRA EXTRA! RED IT ALL IN THE ___________ NEWSPAPER!
like a paparazzi.

the first thing that comes to my mind is a pepperoni pizza. or rather, paparroni pizza. the topping made of cameras and photos, the crust full of gossip.

Today, my legs collapsed after French oral.

Today, French oral was crap. cause I blanked out. almost.

Today, I wished I could have seen Backstreet Boys live and Fisichella and Raikkonen.

Today, I bought the campus word cards that I've been wanting.

Today, the Malay cerpen website that I subscribe to the newsletter send me updates of 16 new cerpens and novels.

and Today, I found out that aside from burning stuff, I like to stick sunflowers on places I like and write odes to people with these flowers. that's even more crazy.

plus plus! Today, I don't believe in the my blog my say because later you say, and people get hurt, get ready to face the music. it happened to me 3 times, btw.
oh I AM exhausted. not in the legs but my mouth also. and a new pimple sprouted, of all brilliant things that happened in the world.

wow, I think I should get a new hotmail add. weird stuff are happening, one of which is happening now.
code languages and all that crap.

I have cuts on my lower lip because of my teeth.

I smashed a damn test tube during lab lesson last Friday. and picked up the fragments with my bare hands. well, with the occasionally OUCH. at that time I just didn't care whether my hand would end up being bloody or not.

plus I had to eat chocolate on Friday, but of course there wasn't one anywhere, not even in my school bag. why? oh right, cause of that "binge eating theory" crap I wrote last time. it's like a trigger reaction.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KRITTIKA. and thanks for the Pastamania treat and the bowlling one as well yo.

Ying Chao said I should sit down. and control. come to think of it, I should. sit, and breathe in and out. that means however fast life is spinning round in crazy circles, I can't catch up.

Nachos finished. but I'm hungry, at 10.55 pm.

oops, I thought one of my cousins was 20 years old but he's 25. D: but of course, I wasn't stupid enough to say that aloud though. satu gf baru je, everyone's saying all the best, may your relationship last. from his side to my mother's family. ye lah, kejap lagi nak kahwin kpe (:

in our age, I just realized that some people, when falling in love, go BONKERS and CRAZY. underline and highlight that.

okay I'm falling asleep.
night.
ttvm.

She sat at a corner of her room, the four walls creating a barrier around her.

She was alone, left to her own emotions that she now spilled, in the form of tears. Dampening her face, she continued. Every tear was imbued with chronological events that went by.

A splitting headache followed, and she had to lie down, head in her palms, while those little beads of tears continued to flow down.

She replayed the events that led to her breakdown; like an old video player with rolls of film whizzing by and they were being played.

One tear reminded her of how she went overboard on the first day. What was simply meant to be fun with her good friend, ended up aggravating the pain on her. She heard a 5 second angry outburst, and she felt the world was crumbling. Her heart guided her to write a note of apology to her, received with open palms.

Another tear brought back recollections of the next day. That friend of hers never uttered a word to her. She saw the cold stare of her friend, hitting back at her like a slap; and memories of the first day flashed by. Her tears was just about to be released, but she had just enough strength within her to control herself.

The next tear, reminded her of the next day. The cold war continued. She felt confused; I thought she would have forgiven, and forgotten about the event, she thought in her head; but it proved wrong. The day ended short; it was already scheduled to be like that. She walked away, feeling the pillar of strength slowly breaking at the foundations.

All the rest of her tears was devoted to the last day, today, which she felt was like a compilation of the recent events that she had experienced before. The war came to a higher peak. When she approached her friend, she'd walk away. Every attempt to begin a conversation halted. It was as though her friend had completely walked away from her innocently.

What she didn't know was that the path she diverted from, left a path of destruction. It released some sort of virus; not a virus, but to her felt like one; in her heart, eating it slowly, as she cried and cried, without any person to comfort her.

An acute pain shot through her head. An unknown darkness clouded her eyes.

wah my cousin has a gf seh. ok, that one digressed a bit haha (:

RAYA! after doing morning prayers my family and I went to my grandma's house only to find out that one of my uncles and his family is not coming cause they're in KL. so we just continued on la. oh then we got "introduced" to my cousin's new gf, then nex thing I know everyone started teasing him about marriage and stuff like that.

then around 3pm went back home, then rested and then went to my religious teacher's house.

today I went to my aunty's house at JB with another uncle and his family. penat tau. after that they went to our house and they just left.

plus, tmrw is school and it's going to be pretty screwed cause there is French. but well fasting month is over so, packed lunch, here we go again.

I was thinking of getting a new blogskin. hey wait I think I should. and the stupid thing is that I only realized that the blogskin images that have many pictures fused together is called blending and it's pretty easy, from the looks of the tutorial on internet.

craving for fried chicken. yum-o. (:

and tones of smses from friends.

sometimes I go to some places around the school, my mouth tasted of bile. and then, next day I'll think of putting sunflowers around those places. weird huh.

hm. I've decided NOT to update the previous post as I promised, because after reading it the point is already there and there's no need to go round in circles.

yesterday was Friday. last day of school week! woohoo! not. I was feeling pretty down yesterday because of school - bleh the same feeling almost everyday - but anyway,
RAYA IS TMRW!
Selamat Hari Aidilfitri, mohon maaf zahir batin.
to basically all the Muslim friends that I have.
like my Madrasah friends and the so-called-clique.

everyone's coming to my grandma's house, I think. everyday we get different guests, like I remembered last year a judge (Idk whether he's retired or not) went to my grandma's house for Hari Raya. cool eh, a JUDGE (: k, my mum is making murukku kat kitchen while I'm typing my blog post.

plus, yesterday, Masjid Darul Makmur was on the news! awesome. then Ustaz Ruhaidzan was interviewed, and also Abang Muttalib. and I also saw some familiar faces on the TV too (:

Para Pencari Tuhan ends today. or is it?

I think it's an awesome show, btw.

to be, or not to be. (:

I'm quite hard to adapat to new surroundings. then I'll just morph them to fit what I like. basically I get my way. but...it's not a good thing aye.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HEATHER!
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH ANG!
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINGYI!

my Music playlist on my handphone is outdated. bah. ):

craving for pineapple tarts. (:

oh btw Im not going to Indonesia this year because apparently the renovation of the house is not yet done and we wouldn't have a place to sleep there. but, my cousin is coming on February...next year. that means I cannot buy the CDs that I want. then I realized, why not ask Irene or Hana to buy for me? I mean, both of them "balik kampung" during the November/December holidays I guess. then some more they live in Jakarta, EASY to find. and plus, they can give to me when school reopens next year.
(:

Conclusion:
(haha reminds me of English. not funny.)
I guess this world is too clouded to delude minds. we should stand up for our own rights and not let others morph and mutilate our choices. because in the end it is us that make the change, not others.

they say if you love the person, let go.

of us, we used to say we love each other,
of this now we say I don't know each other.
of later, we'll say things might change.

if 'd given the chance,

I'd just start to cry again. because guess what happened, I just realized that, the mistake I made which led to what I call 'The Berlin Wall', was basically my fault. &, the person that I always talk to, is far away. from my reach. I've gone overboard. milly will come soon, I swear. hopped over the fence, expecting others to adapt to the new way, I've made inside crumble and insane as well.

I'll continue this post soon.

I guess today's Blogger's birthday or something...so HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

then the flowerpt fan that I bought, I lent to lab partner. then she use. haha(: comes in handy after jogging or P.E. periods eh. (:

and my Physics, I really need to catch up on it. somemore, R FORMULA! must go ask someone to explain to me.

I love my trophy today(: good job everyone, everyone is a winner yeah? (: btw, we thought we're gonna get another bar but we didnt. oh well, there's something called limited supplies.

plus plus, there's good news, and sort of bad news.
oh yeah, right, my French books. AND THE ASTERIX AND OBELIX VCD!

it's called life right, there are ups and downs, lke a roller coaster ride. and that means keping my emotions in check before it falls off the track and gets uncontrollable. then there's let bygones be bygones, so don'tbring up the past...I cant think of any.

lets just call it 2 minute philosophy. or rather, psych-me-up.

on thursday I watched the first 2 episodes of ANTM Cycle 12 and there was this model, Sandra who, when she made comments I feel like laughing at her. okay, so there was this part where she was trying to sleep and all the other models were talking with each other in the same room. then it was cut with a video of herself saying "they have no manners compared to me," bla bla bla.

WHICH was pretty ironic because then back to the sleeping scene, she then said something about "I'm trying to sleep here, you all are making alot of noise, go to the living room and don't disturb me, go and have your dumb conversation in the living room," basically well, the point is quite clear. it's like calling the pot black.

(:

I found this question while watching Why Didn't I Think Of That Too commercial on okto. try!
(x-a)(x-b)(x-c)...(x-z) = ?
the answer is quite simple really.
(:

and there's some other funny stuff. (:

wow, my legs are tired and I want to watch my 12am show later...so I'm going to grab a toblerone.

today after Maths class, my and my mother went to Geylang Serai to of course Hari Raya shopping la. I had to bring my very heavy bag everywhere, from the A'niz bazaar in front of the Post Office, then to TK complex, then another shopping building just in front of TK building, then I was too tired to go to the big bazaar so my mother told me to go to TK complex and sit on one of the benches and wait there, jaga the barang. and I fell asleep. :/

what I bought? another baju kurung, a small bag and I remembered some other stuff also..oh yeah a black scarf and white scarf.

I'm going to bring my fan to school next Monday, no matter what. hey, thanks for reminding lab partner (: after the horrible stuffy classroom...

Pocket Chef finished!
now my practice papers. tons of practice papers.
plus I need to backup EVERYTHING from my laptop because it's going to be sent to servicing...soon.

neck strain plus a few other muscle aches.

1 week holiday? haha, must be joking.

oh yeah, the blogskin image! nice right? I didn't know how to put transparent text in GIMP so well, just left it as it is. (:

most friendships have this situation, where there are 3 best friends but 1 had a misunderstanding with another and the poor 3rd person is the middle person. like an owl. or diplomatic-ish kind of person. well, ever been the 1st person who started the quarrel, the 2nd person that quarreled with the 1st person, or the middle of it all?

I have.

okay first things first.

my blogskin changed yesterday, and then today. cause I realized why not create a Cakka Nuraga blogskin eh? so I took the Bersatulah Indonesia pics or whatever it was called, based on the music video, find snapshots of Cakka on the C~LUVers website and CFC website, then did selective colourization which was pretty much not visible.

then, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEH LIAN!
a.k.a Koh Hui Qi. (:

awesome, and both teams from Cedar made it to the finals! YAY, so now we're going to work hard. for EYEs. (: and do our best for Monday.

Maths class on wednesday.

I'm not in the mood to eat toblerone, sorry.

wait, come to think of it, I think the blogskin signifies an accident and someone was dead due to the accident and the "I'd never do this again" thingy might mean don't want to do the accident because well, think about it, do you want to cause someone's death due to reckless actions? and there's flowers...

I sent request to Cakka, and he accepted. awesome. I mean the C~LUVers website lah. (:

plus I gave Ms Lin and Cikgu Mahani their belated Teacher's Day gifts. yay(:

isn't it nice to receive compliments? while some may not give a damn about it, otheres feel as though as small compliment makes a fat lot of justice and happiness to them.

Toblerone, yum(: I ate 10 plus within one week. no, 2 weeks.

I changed my hp's theme, it's now the Black Equalizer one.

oh oh, and let me tell you this. Hwee Hoon found out there was Taptap on Eveline's iPhone, so then I heard and was like "there's Taptap? I want to play!" so we played 2 players. but at the wrong location, which was just outside the library, and Hwee Hoon & Eveline had to go to the 1st floor. but we started the game already! so no choice, we went down the stairs playing Taptap. it was very weird and dangerous, because I had to make sure I get as many balls as possible. while preventing my ankle from slipping off a stair. so we walked down, slowly, the iPhone between our hands, and Taptap on the phone. it's like carrying a tray downstairs, we both carry one end.

then I beat lab partner man (: but...aww, I should say sorry and give her a nice smile. (:

okay, shall go watch some videos related to tmrw then.
bye(: