my heartbreaker;
how is it that it can just snap clean into 2?


that's because I feel like there's a heartbreaker in my life. without knowing ): sometimes I just want to yell and say "AARGH STOP!" but most of the time, I keep my mouth shut, cause it's much simple and easier. I can hear clearly, my heart being snapped into 2. something's making me down, and a little blue. it sucks, but well, that's life.

btw, why I put G Dragon there it's cause one of his songs is called Heartbreaker. and I love his concept, especially with the apple. come to think of it, maybe I'll buy an apple.

heartbreaker, why does these things happen to me. am I being too overly sensitive again? but then, I really don't know, because I'm so confused. I'm being online now, waiting for midnight to come and then I'll go and dream about the one little star outside my window. before I know it, I hear a crack sound. and then I start to crumble, and fall weak. it's like someone has sapped the energy out of me, and now I'm just a lifeless puppet with strings attached. try as I might to mend it, there's not enough plasters around to fix the mess. heartbreaker, see what has happened.

btw, SARAH TAN is getting her head in kpop also. :D haha I was shocked in the first place. hello primadonna (: haha you say LEE HONGKI IS CUTE. I still can't believe it. it's not a heartbreaker definitely, it's a jawdropper!

coming back to the main post, I don't know what is in store for me in the future. heartbreaker, please come back because...yikes. is it all just a fling? now I think of it. it has been high speed, climaxed fun with loads of hype for the past few weeks, a level which I have personally never shot at. how it came to be that high within a few months rather, I am still wondering. maybe I'm the one that is pulling the huge rope to the big musical on stage, but there's no hook to hang in on to. so I hold on to dear life...

and as I'm typing this post, I get remembered of milly. milly, I miss you freaking so much, and I know you're watching me from up there. I want to see you again, just like the times during my sec 3 life, especially, when we started making friends and then leading on to a solid, great friendship. but now, seeing you gone, I sometimes don't have the strength to go on. but when I think of you, I somehow have. I know you will be there, guiding me on, and supporting me. milly, you have seen my change, and I hope you will finally be happy (:

heartbreaker, I would like to see another beautiful sky again. not stained with blood like now.