I've decided to blog again today cause I felt like I had a open-your-eyes moment thingy today. feeling super sleepy but never mind.

there's this person that I wanna give thanks from the bottom of my heart. I don't really mention her in my blog (eh wait I think a couple of times) but anyways. yup it's a damn HER. maybe she won't read my post, but when she does I hope she will understand how much she means to me.

I think we met each other at SFI, through the shoutbox? it was quite some time ago but then when we started out as acquaintances it was just mere spazzing about Kpop and how SHINee is ultra fabulous in my life. about how hot/cute/handsome/awesome a Kpop idol was, and our biases in Kpop groups and our own groups that we like. we both like different things, but as they say, opposites attract.

then somehow we became close friends and somehow, it was that point where we are simply free to express our feelings, and provide listening ears to one another. I'd just show her all the nice things that I have, like for example the Key birthday stand that I recently made (: and sometimes I'd just randomly rant things out to her. this person, is really very special. she was there for me ALL the time, and I really mean ALL the time. though we only contact each other by sms but she will always reply no matter how busy she was.

when I was down, she was there, providing a listening ear, comforting me and inducing positive thoughts into me. it was really helpful especially during the exam periods and all those rollercoaster problems I had with friends and other people.

when I was really happy, she'd bask in the happiness with me, and jump with joy with me as well.

when I was angry (and there was one time where I was extremely angry with someone), she would try to calm me down so that I won't explode like a volcano with the cone blasted off forming a caldera. and it works all the time.

somehow, she gave me a new found motivation to think positively in life. she was a friend that was really unique from all the others. ever since we've been friends I've been strayed, diverted (whatever it's called) from the dark and destructive past that I had. I'd say, a rainbow in the middle of dark clouds. it was as though there was a new ray of hope in life. and I've learnt to treasure life and the positive things about it thanks to her. I'll safely say that she is like a Cassiopeia in the sky, standing out from the rest. (and also, HINT HINT* )

I don't really have this much gratitude for anyone except for my parents, family and a couple of friends. just a couple or two. and I am not being biased, please... this is all just the truth based from my perspective, from how I view things.

this person, is none other than my wonderful, awesome, super fantastic, brilliant YOOHEE HOOBAE. hoobaenim, I'm not sure if you do read my blog but I want you to know that thank you so so SO much for being there and for providing me a chance to start anew (even though you might not realize it). this year's my O levels and next year's yours right? (: I'm going to push on, persevere and work hard for myself, my parents and family, and the # group, and for YOU as well. I can see the amount of faith and belief that you put in your sunbae and I'm really honestly touched. and with this in mind as my motivation, I'm going to get my freaking 6 POINTSfor O Levels or if can't at least a 7. thank you SO much for just everything, honestly. saranghamnida :D

I wish I could be beside Orange's side all the time. all the pain and sadness, when Orange is going through them, I want to help her ease the pain. been so caught up in my own stupid problems, problems which are as small as a molehill while Orange, out there, is suffering with bigger problems. having a headache thinking about it, and my tears just flowed all the way from Potong Pasir, thinking about it.

yup I have to focus on O Levels, but I will help. I'll be there every step of the way.

but I'm just so tired now.

"today's who's birthday ah?"
"KEY OPPA! the super duper awesome almighty Key whose real name is Kim Kibum and he's the member in SHINee that can sing dance and rap and he can water ski you know and and uh, he's like the super fashionable member and he can seriously pull off difficult clothes off and he's a really good cook like ZE:A's Kevin but that's another story anyways yeah so uh oh and #Key's named after him because of striking similarities and I won't say who #Key is and..."
"okay I get it. -.- "

생일 축하 합니다 to SHINee's almighty Key!

btw, Minho's, Onew's, Taemin's and Jonghyun's birthday cards were all based on Y.O.U. since the Lucifer album hadn't come out yet, which is pretty obvious -.- so Key's getting a Lucifer concept and he's also the first one, heh ^_^ due to time constraint, I only did a very simple one as shown above, I use selective colourization. so for the next birthdays, I'm going to use the same image except specific coloured areas for each member. aiyah don't understand then don't bother, please.

btw I found this really nice image from a blog, shall not divulge what. (:

even if I have to pack my things and go far away,
just to find the one5 that I love,

I will.

Friday I suffered a heartbreak because of some things that are seriously my fault. but that's all I'm going to say, because I can't amplify my problems here. and I'd promise that I won't.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU (:
SARANGHAEYO, SARANGHAEYO, SARANGHAEYO, SARANGHAEYO, SARANGHAEYO (:

omgahh like I'm seriously spamming nonsensical stuff. -.- but I said it 5 times for a reason ;) eh I exceeded my sms limit and now I can't sms #Onew, #Jonghyun, hoobae and one more person that I forgot, it sucks really.

anyways.

I feel really happy today. and I know some people know why (: but it's also because I finally get to open my eyes, and open my heart. I'm realizing something.

hm, should I get a pink lightsaber? though I'm not a Sone, but I think it's really cool. SNSD's quite nice, their music and look I mean. what if there's a pearlescent blue one? (:

oh, and ZE:A's on newspaper!!! omo, I badly wanted to see them. quite a lot of people asked me today if I saw them at the airport. obviously not right, cause got Hari Raya visiting and my parents won't allow. BUT NEVER MIND, they will come back to Singapore, and I'm positive about it. cause when I read fan accounts it seems that they really like Singapore. (:

and SHINee will come next year! can bring #Onew, #Jonghyun, #Key, #Taemin and hoobae along. (:

ENOUGH ABOUT KPOP!

focus on studies -.- it's just one more month so hang in there, memyselfandI! force yourself...

I like my mother's salmon. meaning that she cooks salmon until very delicious and nice one. but chicken's still my favourite type of meat. like someone... (:

for the past few days I've been listening to TRAX's Oh! My Goddess. I really like SHINee + TRAX's remix of Lucifer, but that's another story... listen to Oh! My Goddess, it's a what I'd call a carefree song. (: SEOHYUN UNNIE LOOKS GORGEOUS, REALLY.



I'm putting SHINee's Honey Pot comedy video again because when I post this, the 1st post where I posted this video is going to be gone and then... yeah, quite hard to find later. (:



man I'm seriously crapping -.- kthxbye.

omo, the lyrics to Quasimodo are really very meaningful. #Key and I love it :D not sure for her but for me it's cause when I'm sad, I can scream my feelings out through this song. though I don't understand what they sang at first but now when I view it... yup.

sucks cause I only have one day left ): oh wells. after Os, there's 3 months! (: -.- and hoobae's support really helps me. saranghaeyo <3

under construction again :/
I'm a very fickle minded person.

hoobae says that I have been going on a Kpop spree and I'd say that yeah, I have (: I'm listening to DBSK's MIROTIC and Wrong Number, BoA's Hurricane Venus, TRAX's Oh! My Goddess! and recently 2NE1's Clap Your Hands and Go Away (omgoodness I really really love CL's look in Go Away.) but I really really like TRAX's Oh! My Goddess because aside from the fact that Seohyun looks really fresh in the MV, but the song's something that I'll listen to on a long bus ride and when I feel happy. (:

kamsa hanmida to the people who sent me those really nice smses today (: #Onew, #Jonghyun, Priyanka, Aarthi D, uh Ashikin and Sabrina + Haziqah :D NOW I'm not really eating that much goodies cause must maintain diet mah :D I've been affected by someone (I won't really say who), so much so that I'm starting to maintain strictly what I eat.

yup and as you can see I've changed my blogskin cause I want a dark coloured one now (: it's originally called WOWOWOW. a really awesome song like Oh! My Goddess and I love Jonghyun's vocals! (: wait I don't think I changed the title either right - I kept it? anyways. #Jonghyun, you must listen to Quasimodo! wait you listen already ah - sorry I just read your twitter :P I love Jonghyun's vocals here also because he really stretch his vocal range here. especially the high pitched parts.

tomorrow after lunch I'm going to Johor and visit my aunt cause she invite us go there :D today I only went to my grandma's house and my religious teacher's house but quite a lot of people came. I suppose -.- for some apparent reason I was really sleepy so I slept like what, 2 times today? woke up with a massive headache :/ but it got cured by 9pm after I took Panadol. so yay (: HAHA and I joked to #Onew saying that I'm going to tapao my uncle's chicken wings (since we had lunch there) and give to her. and she replied "I want! I want! I want!" HAHA cute lah you (:

okay, I need to reply #Jonghyun's letter. I've replied #Key's one, and I took a long time because I actually wrote a LOT of stuff in it. Monday's going to be the start of a really long race, and people will change. the start of a race that if we don't prepare, and get ready, we'll fall along the way. so good luck :D to myself too.

ANYWAYS, ZE:A is here! D: quite sad that I can't see them. but I'm sure there will be chances in the future. hopefully. from the fan accounts that I've read so far, they're very nice! like they wave to fans and interacted with them a bit. sigh, I wanna see them, especially my 3 biases! ): omo. but, excited!! tomorrow's their showcase @ Suntec and the fans attending that...damn lucky. :/

okay I think I wrote a load of crapshit today. but seriously, I don't freaking care. people are sure going to have mixed emotions and there's going to be some negative ones. I used to cry my heart out because of them, but now I won't care. cause the world's not only about criticism and bad stuff, ne? (:

OMO I have tons of stuff to do on revamping this blog.
so yeah (: under construction, I'd say?

I love #Onew, #Jonghyun, #Key and #Taemin. ;)

this is a short video where SHINee appeared in. it's a comedy, basically (: I think it's basically about dating younger boys... which I don't really like, heh :/ anyways, Jonghyun looks SUPERBLY AWESOMELY WONDERFULLY freaking x infinity CUTE in this video. and I think #Jonghyun's going to agree with me.

____________________________________________

this bottom half was edited in the night cause the top part was in the morning. found this video which was shown in madrasah, and it's really inspiring. It shows that the we as humans are as small as a small shred of DNA compared to the universe around us.

happy birthday to Minwoo oppa of ZE:A! Saengil chukha hamnida! (:

DBSK - Mirotic

yup this might be a song that appeared quite some time ago, but I really really liked it recently. and the concept, I like! (: plus I think Changmin's vocals are very very impressive here (quoted by HOOBAE :D) especially the 3 octave scream ;)



DBSK - Wrong Number

another DBSK song that I like! I really love the choreo. :D and I think that Changmin's vocals are really good here too. (:

1. When you suddenly talk in a nasal voice.

* Onew - Surprised, so he just stares and smiles
* Jonghyun - Stares for a while, and then grins all of a sudden
* Kibum - Imitates you and laughs
* Minho - Gets rid of his flaming charisma and just smiles at you
* Taemin - Says "Hehe.. Noona, you're funny..." and laughs


2. When you ask them to entertain you because you're bored.

* Onew - Says he'll go shopping with you
* Jonghyun - Brings his mp3 over, listens to it with you and falls asleep while listening
* Kibum - Tickles you and plays with you
* Minho - Silently brings two Nintendo DS and plays with you
* Taemin - Says he'll take you to a PC room or an arcade


3. When some thugs gang up on you

* Onew - Pushes you away and gets beat up in your place
* Jonghyun - Runs over and beats them up for you
* Kibum - Calls all the sunbae he knows
* Minho - Shoots his flaming charisma on them so they run away
* Taemin - Calls the police


4. When he goes to the army

* Onew - Tells you that you're forbidden to look at any other guys until he comes back
* Jonghyun - Says "This oppa will come back much cooler"
* Kibum - Chatters on and on for the last time
* Minho - Says one thing. "I'll come back..."
* Taemin - Says "You trust me right? I'll be back soon."


5. When he's back from the army

* Onew - Suddenly comes up behind you, hugs you and says "Did you wait long?"
* Jonghyun - Hugs you, tells you he missed you and also says "How am I? Isn't oppa cooler?"
* Kibum - Smiles widely and says "Did you wait a long time?"
* Minho - Gets rid of his flaming charisma, smiles and hugs you while saying "I missed you"
* Taemin - Flies over and hugs you and says "I'm finally back!"


6. When you confess your love to him

* Onew - Listens quietly and then hugs you
* Jonghyun - Confesses together with you
* Kibum - Thanks you and gives you a present
* Minho - Takes you somewhere else and confesses his love.
* Taemin - Says he's going to confess, too


7. When you're crying in front of your house

* Onew - Holds you and comforts you
* Jonghyun - Comforts you, and then watches you go into the house
* Kibum - Takes you to his house and comforts you there
* Minho - Hugs you until you stop crying
* Taemin - Stays still and then cautiously talks to you


8. When you doze off on the bus

* Onew - Falls asleep first and leans on you
* Jonghyun - Falls asleep together with you, wakes up suddenly and puts his jacket over you
* Kibum - Watches you quietly
* Minho - Sits you on his lap
* Taemin - Wakes you up and tells you to sleep at home


9. After your date, when you go home

* Onew - Asks "Do you want me to take you home?"
* Jonghyun - Says "Let's go" and nothing else and takes you home
* Kibum - Says "Is your house big? Did you clean your room?" and nags you all the way until your house
* Minho - Says nothing and takes you home
* Taemin - Says "Nuna, I'm scared! I'll call you so go home by yourself!" and goes home by himself


10. When you say you're cold

* Onew - Takes his coat off for you
* Jonghyun - Buys you a windbreaker
* Kibum - Takes you into a warm coffee shop and buys you coffee
* Minho - Puts his coat around both of you
* Taemin - Says he's cold and asks you to take off your coat for him


11. When you say you're exhausted

* Onew - Asks you if you're okay and pats your back
* Jonghyun - Tells you to cry if you're exhausted
* Kibum - Asks what happened
* Minho - Holds you
* Taemin - Suddenly turns into Power Taemin and holds you tightly


12. When you're walking together

* Onew - Holds your hand tightly
* Jonghyun - Says "You're really pretty from the side..." and keeps staring at you
* Kibum - Keeps chattering
* Minho - Stares at you with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Acts cute and talks with you


13. When you say there's something in your eye

* Onew - Blows on your eye
* Jonghyun - Says "Stop joking" but blows on your eye anyway
* Kibum - Hits the back of your head until you cry
* Minho - Melts the dust with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Says "I think there's something in my eye too~" and has you blow on his eye


14. When SHINee comes over when you're coming out of school

* Onew - Asks if you're hungry and buys you food
* Jonghyun - Suddenly holds your hand and walks together
* Kibum - Packs lunch for you and feeds you
* Minho - Shoots flaming charisma while he walks over
* Taemin - Holds your hand and says "did you miss oppa?"


15. When you say you want this and that

* Onew - Buys for you without hesitation
* Jonghyun - Says "No! I don't have money~" and buys something slightly cheaper
* Kibum - Says "Save money!" but buys it the next day and leaves it front of your house
* Minho - Glares at you with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Says "Oppa doesn't have money~" and begs you to buy it for him


16. When you ignore all his calls and texts for a day

* Onew - Has texted you 50 times and called you 50 times
* Jonghyun - Has texted you 20 times and called you 60 times and then ran over to your house
* Kibum - Has texted you 3 times, called you 20 times and ran over to your house
* Minho - Has texted you 20 times, called you 100 times and then consistently asks you the next day what you did the day before
* Taemin - Has texted you 2 times, called you 3 times and then comes over and cries, asking why you ignored him


17. When you cry

* Onew - Holds you and comforts you
* Jonghyun - Suddenly becomes serious, pats your back and says, "Don't cry..."
* Kibum - Says "Aigoo, my baby, don't cry"
* Minho - Says scarily, "Who made you cry"
* Taemin - Cries with you, saying, "Nuna, why are you crying?"


18. When you're laughing crazily because of something really funny

* Onew - Shocked, says "Ba..baby..."
* Jonghyun - Laughs crazily AT you
* Kibum - Scolds you, saying, "A girl shouldn't laugh like that"
* Minho - Says nothing and makes you feel awkward
* Taemin - Laughs crazily WITH you


19. When you gift him with a sweater you've made yourself

* Onew - Extremely touched, says "Wow... Baby, thanks..."
* Jonghyun - Complains that it looks weird, but wears it extremely often
* Kibum - Confused, says, "Huh, I never taught you stuff like this"
* Minho - Only says "thanks"
* Taemin - Acts cute to show his gratitude


20. When you kiss him on the cheek

* Onew - Blushes brightly but kisses you
* Jonghyun - Says, "You started it" and kisses you deeply
* Kibum - Gets shocked and says, "Oh my god, what are you doing"
* Minho - Clears his throat and makes the situation awkward
* Taemin - Sprouts nosebleed


21. When you're with him at a swimming pool in a bikini and guys stare at you (I'LL NEVER DO THAT IN MY LIFE, cause I'm not even allowed -.-)

* Onew - Puts a towel over you silently
* Jonghyun - Curses everyone out silently
* Kibum - Starts scolding you, "What were you thinking?!"
* Minho - Scares everyone with his flaming charisma so no one can stare.
* Taemin - Says "Noona, I don't like sexy women" and makes you go change


22. When you call suddenly really late at night

* Onew - Woke up because of your call and is sleepy, but says he wasn't sleeping and stays on the phone with you
* Jonghyun - Says "who told you to call this late" but sings you a sweet lullaby
* Kibum - Nags you about waking up because of you, but all of a sudden you realize he's been talking more than you have
* Minho - Worries about you because you aren't asleep yet
* Taemin - Is very honest and tells you he's sleepy and is going to go to sleep


23. During the finals week, when you've studied at school until really late and call him to take you home

* Onew - Asks you where you are, runs over as fast as he can and brings hot cocoa with him
* Jonghyun - Tells you that he's too tired and it's too much work, so you're walking home alone upset, but suddenly appears and wraps his arm around you to surprise you
* Kibum - Says "Since when do you study?" but also says "Don't go anywhere"
* Minho - Before you call him, he calls you to ask if you want to get picked up
* Taemin - Comes over in his mom's car to give you a ride


24. When you show up wearing a really short skirt (LIKE AS IF I WILL, I'll wear a pair of leggings inside or I won't wear at all!)

* Onew - Clears his throat because he doesn't know where to keep his gaze
* Jonghyun - Says "Sheesh... I don't know what to do with you.." and takes off his jacket to tie it around your front and walks closely behind you
* Kibum - Hits you and says he won't hang out with you if you dress like this again
* Minho - Doesn't say anything, but every time a guy stares at you glares at them with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Very honestly says, "Wow, your legs are really pretty, noona"

25. When you're in pain in because of really high heels

* Onew - Suddenly takes you to a bench, sits you down and gives you a foot massage
* Jonghyun - Goes into a store, buys a pair of cheap slippers for himself and gives you his sneakers
* Kibum - Nags you about it, suddenly gives you a piggy back ride, but doesn't stop nagging
* Minho - Stares at you for a while with his flaming charisma, then kneels down and tells you "Get on"
* Taemin - Doesn't know what to do because you're hurting


26. When you say, "Let's break up"

* Onew - Says nothing except "Good bye" and then when you turn your back smiles sadly and cries
* Jonghyun - Says "Let me hold you for the last time" and then lets you go, but cries his eyes out when you're gone
* Kibum - Suddenly stops joking around and asks you if you're joking and says he won't let you go
* Minho - Stares at you, and when you turn around takes your arm and tells you not to go
* Taemin - Whines, asks why and says no like a child


27. After you've broken up

* Onew - Makes sure you don't know, but visits the front of your house and stares at your window
* Jonghyun - Calls you when he's drunk and cries his heart out
* Kibum - Texts you things like "You really aren't going to see me?" "I miss you" "I can't let you go"
* Minho - Calls anonymously and hangs up after he hears your voice
* Taemin - Cries because he doesn't know what to do after the first person that he fell in love with dumped him

Key : 6
Minho : 9
Onew : 8
Jonghyun : 3
Taemin: 1

FINE I decided to do this also, because my #Jonghyun and Michi put this on their blogs and I remember one of my friend's friend did this also..so HAHA when I looked at the results I was like "wth?" but I just laughed like mad cause seriously, some of the options are just ridiculous. but YAY, MY BIAS'S the first :D

"I LOVE JONGHYUN'S HAIR WHEN IT'S ALL BLOWN OUT LIKE THAT!" haha #JONGHYUN, you damn cute leh ♥ today I might want to do a picture spam...yeah I think I'm going to. cause #Jonghyun requested it today (:



ah omgoodness if this lollipop was sold in stores, I'll buy them by the box (: and give to my #Onew, #Jonghyun, #Key and #Taemin, hoobae... oh wow, tons of people.


JONGHYUN FLAUNTING OFF HIS BACK! I know someone that will like this :D oh fine, I like it too ♥


omo, SO CUTE! ♥ it's like dumplings like that! HAHA but I think those were made of plasticine. still, very cute right? XD I really liked Jonghyun's one (:


AH #JONGHYUN, I freaking freaking love love his hair here! ♥ so spiked up! no seriously, I really really loved it. when I saw this I just SCREAMED.


okay, here's one where he's smiling. cutely. (:


whee I LOVE HIM HERE TOO ♥ ♥ something about flawless skin? no wait, Onew has it too (:


#Jonghyun, I miss his blonde hair ))): I really really want his blonde hair back. but I like his Lucifer hair as well (: still, I really think his blonde's the best. cause to me, it softens up the strong facial features that he has. so he got like baby-face like that. (:


Jonghyun's blonde hair number 2!


Jonghyun's blonde hair number 3! ah I remember you wanted this right, #Jonghyun? yeah I think he's cute here too (: but Minho's still my bias, ah!


"Even so, isn't Jonghyun the hyung? and Minho the dongsaeng?" "looking at it from far away, it looks like a dad hugging his son who is going to joing the army. telling him, 'my son, it's okay~' "


I shall repost this for my #Jonghyun (: yup I really like him here also.


YA YA #Jonghyun's dreaming that her future husband will give her roses. haha (: but I'm sure that when you find your very own Jonghyun in the future, he will do so. but then, your own Jonghyun is Jonghyun right? get it? :D


here's one picture where both me and #Jonghyun like. seriously, Minho looks really really awesomely HOT here. and HIGHLIGHT and UNDERLINE it! he looks freaking nice just with a t-shirt and jeans. and his hair, ♥ ! like Kevin Aprilio but that's a different story.


#Jonghyun likes this one too! I told here the meaning behind this pose : when Jonghyun sings high notes, he always turns to the side and up so that people won't see his weird expresion when he hits high notes. but that pose makes him so much more better, ne? ((:


Jonghyun's blonde hair number 4! SO CUTE~


HAHA when I saw this photo I just smiled. he's just really really cute here too ♥ oh, Jonghyun's blonde hair number 5!


HAHA #Jonghyun's reaction when seeing this picture was really epic. HAHA :Dwait, I hope it's the right reaction - is it the one where she got super super excited? ah, my memory's poor.


and, Jonghyun's blonde hair number 6! (:


hope you liked it, #Jonghyun! I might want to do another picture spam like this, honestly. but another time (: here's as you requested + some of my additional personal Jonghyun and SHINee favourite pictures. (: and the Taemin pictures that Mrs Lim gave, SO CUTE! sounds really cliche. but yup (:
this post is chock full of SHINee pictures, so antis, don't want to see then fine lor.
even though I had to leave halfway, thank you #Jonghyun and #Taemin for spending the time with me! you both really asked sensible questions and took the time to interact. (: remember this saying that I said : "Taemin come sit here! maknae must sit in the middle!" saranghaeyo, and thank you. you're 2 awesome friends that I really really treasure and I thank Allah S.W.T. for blessing me with really great, wonderful friends.
okay, shall go and reply #Key's letter. thank you so much, it was really sweet!