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Dear A,
firstly, let me ask you an important question. how stupid are you? you get hurt by the same person almost on a daily basis and common sense would have told you to just let go of that person and don't think about her in the first place. but why do you still keep clinging on to that friend as though you're so afraid to let go, so afraid to lose anyone? I know maybe it's cause of the past but HELLO, let bygones be bygones. life isn't all about that person. cherish all the other wonderful things that life has to offer. get a life, and move on.

you ask me why I didn't visit you as often. that's because I knew you had changed, from last time. and I can see a significant amount of change in you. you're no longer the small little girl that would cry almost every single thing, no longer the person who would give up easily. but it's as though that old self is coming back. and I'm coming back, I'm paying you a visit to warn you, to help you and to push that little personality trait of yours away. because I love you.

there are so many friends out there. the ones whom you think aren't significant actually are. those that are so much more better than the current ones whom you think you share this super super special, important, bond with them but in reality, let me tell you, those who you think really care about you, they don't know you well and so do you. like your hoobae? have you noticed how many times she has helped you, given you advice and really, makes you happy even in the darkest of moments? and yet you don't treasure. your eyes are all in the wrong place.

you accuse others of being blind, but you yourself are blind. Your life is short - every human's life is extremely short compared to life in the Alam Barzagh and in Syurga - so why not devote yourself spiritually, pray and constantly think of Allah S.W.T. because He will always be there for you no matter what? why, why why?

how stupid are you, to refusing to adapt to change, be stubborn and superbly sensitive? how stupid are you to get hurt over all the small, nitty gritty things? even after what the doctor said? you still don't want to change. it's better to reprimand you now, because then only will the message sink in. don't you dare become like Umbridge, who forced Harry to write 'I must not tell lies' with his own blood. don't expect things around you to change. YOU yourself has to change first, as quoted in the Quran. then only will Allah S.W.T. help you.

but I believe in you. I believe you can be aware, that you can change. because you CAN, and you can do it. you have the ability to persevere, and be brave. there's a treasure chest of courage within you that you didn't know.

even if the world turns their back against you, I'll be here for you, always.
♥, milly