happy birthday Kevin oppa! saengil chukha hamnida (:

School's tiring, class's cool, OG 10's still awesome, and life sucks. Well except for a bag of candy that my CCA friend gave, a really special persona, a crush, paper protection and the occasional slip-up which seriously can't be avoided at times.

Not going to be the same... But hey, I'm loving it! :D

Life's now like a bitch honestly. And seriously, some people are really... It's like should I take them seriously? It's also kinda weird, that a separation I thought would be painful turned out just fine. In fact, there's now some more sunshine. (: I have my own way, others do. And all the broken promises...

FORGET IT. bygones are bygones. Gonna be ok without why oh.

I miss my darling quartet btw ):

happy birthday Dongjun oppa! saengil chukha hamnida (:

happy birthday Junyoung oppa! saengil chukha hamnida! (:

maybe we're not meant to be.

I guess it's true then that love is blind. I don't want the same thing to happen again because it'll definitely make me miserable again...and I don't want another repetition of the past. I don't want;
but why am I so SO stupid to have gone one step away and not become the norm anymore? Why was I so dumb as to do such a thing?

I've lost the one thing that has given me the extra glimmer of hope, and now I'm afraid. I'm scared and that's why I'm not exactly what people would call happy. What if I lose it forever? when I first saw, I thought hey, maybe there's a chance. Maybe something can happen finally. But then, this crazy thing just happened and next thing I know, it's on the brink of losing something really precious… forever.

I'm sorry, I really am. maybe we're not meant to be huh. it sucks to break away but I have to accept fate. it's the end unfortunately... and a long period of solitude even before I come back again.

we don't feel the same and I'm really confused as what to do next... At first I thought that, maybe it could be solved. but now, I don't think I'm able to mend anything anymore.

just put the blame on me okay. it's all my fault and I admit it. I can't do anything else but to just stare, at those two eyes like before, someday hoping...

something would happen.

(psst, this blogging app is super awesome :D)

it's really cold here for some apparent reason but still able to go through life, if that's what people say... Compared to my friend Rozanna who is always super warm to the extend that I thought she came out from an oven! (: ok, it's a bit of in thing also...

never mess with destiny. that would be disastrous, and bring about unfortunate consequences.

the past week has been... absolutely fantastic awesome superb brilliant supercalifragilisticexpialidocious. :D orientation was a freaking blast!! OG 10 SARANGHAEYO <3 they really are awesome. Where else would it be found, people who would be brave enough to shout MY MELONS ARE BIG! while holding two watermelons in their hands? and people that seem to have an endless list of jokes, people that are really nice and accept the rest for who they are, though crazy they seem to be?

people that:
never let a dull moment exist,
having a seemingly never ending book of jokes,
care about others, treasure things and be nice and kind,
and the most, making me feel that I was belonged.

it's something got to do with my past - and I have no intention to write a long, grandmother story about it. let bygones be bygones... I don't want to think about my past for it will stir up bad things in me again - and I don't wish to.

OH AND BTW THERE'S THIS REALLY GORGEOUS PIC OF ONEW OPPA THAT IS EH MY GOODNESS FREAKING... well, GORGEOUS. too bad I didn't save it in my phone and I think it'll be a hassle to search in the net. Oh wells, maybe I'll re-edit some other day.

something also happened that made me really pissed off and disappointed. and then develop feelings of dislike that I can't really remove right now. So, please just get a life and stop doing this to me. besides, it ain't my fault. I wish that I could live back the days where we'd just cherish each other and just don't care about everything, a time where we'd play with Barbie dolls and do each other's hair... But it seems the once lived memory is now a fantasy in the cloud kingdom. there's nothing to say.

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY AWESOME FRIEND SIYAN!! <3 you were the first person that I met in NJ and since them you've brought me joy and happiness in my life... I really feel blessed to have you as my friend. And sorry that I keep showing my childhood photo to you about 4 times (or maybe more ): )